Heavens Very Special Child
A meeting was held quite far from Earth
“It’s time again for another birth.”
Said the angels to the Lord above
“This special child will need much love.”
His progress may seem very slow
Accomplishments he may not show
And he’ll require extra care
From the folks he meets way down there
So let’s be careful where he’s sent
We want his life to be content
Please Lord find parents who
Will do a special job for you
They will not realize right away
The leading role they’re asked to play
But with this child sent from above
Comes stronger faith and richer love
And soon they’ll know the privilege given
In caring for this gift from heaven
Their precious charge, so meek and mild
Is heaven’s very special child
This reinforced for me the fact that God was not going to make me face anything more than what He could help me survive.
I have to admit that after Isaac was born, it took me a while (probably close to 2 weeks) to even want to start bonding with him. Sure, all the tubes and wires made it difficult to get close to him, but I don't know that I could have anyway. I didn't want to make it any more heart-breaking than it was already going to be, should Isaac not survive - which is what all the indications were.
Yes, I prayed and believed that God could go back in time and protect Isaac's umbilical cord so that there was still enough oxygen getting through to his brain (ie that He could prevent the brain injury from occuring in the first place). What my faith struggled with was, that if Isaac had been deprived of so much oxygen for so long, could he be healed from the insult that his brain suffered.
When you face something like this, it challenges you - your beliefs, values, faith, determination, basically everything that you are - to the core of your being.
Then there were the issues with PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder), depression/post natal depression, and the uncertainty of Isaac's long term prognosis. Not mention what the earthquakes have done to disrupt so much of what used to be normal. More on all these another time.
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